I was scheduled to do my long run this morning and I was going to get up and do it. I missed my spin class Friday so I told myself, No Excuses. I got a text from my running buddy this morning around 5:15 am saying that she was battling food poisoning and wasn’t going to make it to the 6 am run. I hadn’t even had time to respond to her when hubby’s phone rang. Hubby isn’t the type to talk on the phone, especially before he’s had his coffee so my heart jumped.
I could hear my sister in-law’s voice on the phone. She’s got quite the volume and I could tell she wasn’t her bubbley self. Father in-law wasn’t doing well and they were headed to the hospital. We jumped out of bed and stumbled around trying to find suitable clothes. We rushed up the gigantic hill that leads to the hospital entrance and dashed up the stairs to the CCU.
My brother in-law was standing in the hallway. “Dad’s gone.” was all I remember him saying. At that instant my heart broke. Father in-law was sick for a long time and I know he’s not suffering anymore but the pain of him not being there is larger than I ever thought possible. I love my own family but we are not close for a number of reasons. I became very close to hubby’s dad and enjoyed all his cheesey science fiction movies and jokes. He was a lot like hubby and I know that I am going to miss him like crazy.
This day has seemed to last forever. The never-ending, terrible, awful day. I haven’t picked myself up or kicked myself into gear. I have ate brownies (triple chocolate chunk) and pasta among other things. Today just doesn’t feel like a day to stick to a plan. Comfort food and cuddles are in store. For no, I choose to believe it’s a bad dream and I’ll let reality hit when it comes. The world has lost a truly amazing, kind, and selfless man. I count myself incredibly lucky to have been able to get to know him for the 5 years I have. One thing I know is that I will miss him like crazy.
August 23, 2015 at 12:24 am
So sorry for your loss!
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August 23, 2015 at 12:41 am
Thanks 🙂 It’s never easy but at least he’s no longer sick..
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August 23, 2015 at 1:19 am
Britt I’m so sorry to hear (read?) that. I also lost my father in law a couple years ago and it super sucks. I agree, it’s good to know he’s no longer in pain but still it hurts. Warm hugs to you and your family.
~Kirsti
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August 23, 2015 at 1:55 am
Thanks girl 🙂 It really does super stink. I’m going to miss his silly jokes and his calls that end up forcing us to watch some random, cheesey sci fi movie on netflix.
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August 23, 2015 at 1:36 am
I’m so sorry for your loss. We’re all here for you, prayers and condolences to you and your family.
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August 23, 2015 at 1:55 am
Thanks girl 🙂 I really appreciate it
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August 23, 2015 at 1:49 am
I am so sorry for your loss 😥
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August 23, 2015 at 1:56 am
Thanks girl 🙂 It’s definitely a rough day but we are somehow managing and tomorrow is a new day..
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August 23, 2015 at 2:20 am
I’m so so sorry. 😦
Let yourself grieve in your own way, there’s always another day to get back to your normal routines.
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August 23, 2015 at 2:49 am
Today i wallowed, tomorrow I start with a run. He was always proud of the running stuff I did so my run will be in his memory. Thanks so much for your sweet words 🙂
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August 23, 2015 at 2:54 am
Well then, get out there and make him proud. You’ll be in my thoughts tomorrow morning.
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August 23, 2015 at 3:36 am
That’s my plan 🙂 thanks, it does mean a lot!
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August 23, 2015 at 5:08 am
This is so sad. 😦 praying for you and your family tonight.
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August 23, 2015 at 9:28 am
So sorry Britt. Look after yourself!
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August 23, 2015 at 11:21 am
So sorry to hear this, will be thinking and praying for peace and comfort for you and your family at this time x
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August 24, 2015 at 4:25 am
Thank you
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August 23, 2015 at 1:48 pm
I’m so sorry for your great loss. May peace be with you soon.
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August 24, 2015 at 4:24 am
thank you
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August 24, 2015 at 12:43 am
I lost my dad last December while training for the GSC. He died while I was on a long run early in the morning and my husband turned the porch light on so I would know something was up. I ran the GSC in February 2015 thinking of him, My Condolences.
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August 24, 2015 at 4:24 am
Thank you 🙂 It’s never an easy thing to go through. I have been thinking about running the GSC in his memory
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August 24, 2015 at 6:37 pm
I’m sorry for your loss 😦
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August 24, 2015 at 6:49 pm
Thank you
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August 24, 2015 at 7:19 pm
I’m so sorry about your loss!! Your family is in my prayers.
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August 24, 2015 at 7:46 pm
Thank you
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August 24, 2015 at 8:45 pm
I am so sorry for your loss. 😦
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August 30, 2015 at 5:19 pm
Aww, I’m so sorry for your loss. Sending you warm thoughts!
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September 1, 2015 at 3:12 am
Thanks!
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